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2010-12-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

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Your Love ; My Heart .

2010-12-04T06:59:00.003+08:00

Back to blog! Should update more often. Lol,if not this blog going to dead. Nothing much to talk about just that life sucks. LOL.

With Serine & Andrea & Wenbin now. <3

Okay nothing much le. Lastly,Baby,I love you and I really do. (':

With Love.

2010-11-30T03:36:00.004+08:00

Turn to life page,I realised I didn't update it for so long le. Hahs,should back to blog alittle bit now.

Didn't did anything much in this month. Life getting bored. Work became life partner,and yet sleep is getting apart from me,make me eye grew bigger. == Tired to the max,even now also,tired like one street dog. Hahs.

Everyday pass my time with friends,play lan,chiong maple and etc etc. Never felt lonely. Grew up with friend's caring. Thanks yeah guys. ^_^

Lastly I need to post something for someone :

Even though I miss you that much,but I'm telling myself not to. I did tried. It just you haven see how much effort I putted in. You ask me to forget you,but as you know,I not gonna too. Even though its just a one night stand,you're still make me gone crazy to you. You rejects everything that I done for you. Maybe you think I'm just a toy for you to play or use,after that you'll just throw my away apart from you. I don't wish that to happen,but it did. (':

After see-ing this,dont be agitated or whatever. I'm just sharing and convert to you how I felt this past few days.

-Meaningless-

抉择

2010-11-11T14:29:00.002+08:00

如果真的选择了你，那么以后会不会幸福? 我一直反复的问自己，你是不是我的那下一片春天。

Maybe to you everything that I'd say it enough show that I'd fallen in love with you,but i can tell you its not. I still love him,and yet.. I really dont know whats those feeling. When talking to you on phone,I felt so comfortable,after hang up,my mind is all him again.. If you see this and you did jealous,that mean you love me,so i wont blame you for jealousing yet I'll felt happy because I knew that you love me. From friend to lover,its just a gap,a very very very near gap. You need know me more,you need to listen to my heart beat. At least in future you wont regret if you'd really go on a relationship with me. Cut down my words here. (':

执着 Malheureux

2010-11-10T07:06:00.002+08:00

不说对不起，不想说。因为一切的一切只是我想要走的路。(:

痛苦，你们懂吗？

2010-11-07T03:41:00.002+08:00

Congrats myself went back to darkness again. Things coming up to haunt me. Thought it getting better,but i think i'm wrong.

My younger bro,a poor thing that kena somethings that made his life thirty. He'll be forever living in the small hut with those small kids and grow up lonely. He seem dislike his life inside childrens home ( Chen Su Lan Home ) . In the starting when those ppl bringing him go,I kneel down and beg my fking father dont do that to him,but yet he still did. He so small size,dont you all use the brain think how will he felt? His dream is just get a computer thats why he will become so bad and naughty,like this small request so hard for you? Cruel Father Ever. I can tell you,I hate you. Beat me all you want. I will just throw you downstair next time and let you die and suffer in the bloody hell. Beebee uh beeebeee,korkor will go visit you someday okay,we cant contact but you know korkor's heart always link to yours isnt it? Type till here,tears start to drop...I dk...

Born in this kind of family,alot ppl will say isnt my family fault,its depends how i live myself. But thats 1 million different from you all think. I'm just being treating like a dog,like a puppy,like a maid. I everynight going to sleep cry,wake up cry. Everyday also cry. Maybe you all will think that i useless,but i dont care how you all comments,I'm just being myself. Stop controlling my life either. (':

Love isnt what you think girl,I enough of those shits that let me suffering now,so yeah,dont make me more and more frustated. If you think I can everyday smile and laugh with you , then you're wrong. I not free to entertain anyone. So stop being annoying and emoing all ard,you're just being a small girl instead doing something better. Impossible mean impossible,stop posting those emo post and make me felt guilty. Make ppl think that I am a puppy who hurt you. Get it? So yeah,I want you now think about it. And stop being ridiculous before I angry. And I not in the mood to play with you this few days,so dont come and try my patient. Mark all m y words. Its for you. (:

2010-10-15T23:50:00.007+08:00

不是简单爱 Part 1 - The start of the L.O.V.E

那一年的夏天，我在东京地铁站里遇见你，你带着那顶类似绅士般的帽子，穿着Nike最新推出的鞋子，身上穿得挺好看的。我在远远的一处找到了一个位子，放下背包，做了下来，吃着那包还剩下那么一点点的面包。天气弥漫着一种炭烧的味道，让我瞬间有点想冲回宿舍泡一包热腾腾的拉面来吃。正想得津津有味的我，把你给疏忽掉了，顿时间脑海里一片空白，心里想着：“我的帅哥呢！！！” 心乱如麻的我赶紧丢下那剩下一点点的面包，跑到月台四处展望地找你. 忽然间，你轻轻地从我的背后拍了两下，我转会头，你那张帅气的脸简直快要把我逼昏了。我愣在那一瞬间动也不动的。隐隐约约可以闻到他身上那股香水的味道，那是薄荷味的香水！好少男孩会用的香水！“你还好吧？” 他说。我顿时清醒了一下，回答道：“啊...嗯...我没事啊.."。我的血是热藤到了极点！“拿，你的钱包！” 他带着那灿烂的微笑对我说到。我还来不及回应吗，他又说到 : “干吗那么不小心啊？。我紧紧的愣在那里一动也不动，心跳顿时跳得比平时还快.. 终于提起勇气的我说：“哦...没有啦，我刚刚应该是忘了把皮包放好吧！” 他又再一次提起那迷人的笑容，问到：“你也是从新加坡过来留学的吧？” “是啊，你又怎么知道？”我战战兢兢的回答到。“刚刚不小心打开你的皮包，看见你的学生证啊。” 他还是带着那微笑说到。“哦，那你是从哪里来的，因为这里很难找到会说那么流利华语的人。”带着满脑疑问的我问到。正在等他回答的那一刻那该死的地铁抵达了，那正是他的列车吧，我想。他二话不说的放下他那类似旅行袋的背包，拿出一张小纸条，用钢笔在上面写下一堆密密麻麻的数字，当时的我真的没有去看到底他在写些什么，只知道心里一直狠骂着那该来不该来，不该来就偏偏要来的列车。“给你！对不气我的列车来了，改次再聊！再见！”他带这那种很冲忙的语气说到，说完以后他飞奔的跑进车厢找了个位子做了下来。“车门要关了。”会听一点点日语的我听到那月台传来的广播声。他微笑挥着手，向我说再见。

不久过后，我的列车也抵达了，找了个没人坐的双人坐，坐了下来。脑海里想着他的微笑，自己也情不自禁的傻笑了起来。从口袋中掏出那张他给我的纸条，上面印着一只小熊的纸条，上面写着：“0897253255 Call Me ~ 文斌”，刹那间又再傻去的我，大利的戳戳我那近视眼，看了多一遍，对！没错！他叫我打给他！那是他的联络号码！开心极了的我不禁的大笑，哈哈哈哈哈哈！电话号码也！车厢内的乘客都用那种莫名其妙的眼神看着我，但在那个时候的我，谁都不管，因为真的太开心了，这是我人生第一次有人这么主动给我电话号码也！

笑啊笑着，不知道怎么的就睡着了！醒来的时候刚好就抵达终点站了，迷迷糊糊的下了车，走出月台，到对面的车站等着那班我每次搭的车。眼睛还是沉沉的，心里只想着我那张小熊的床，好想飞奔回家睡个好觉。空气弥漫着那股扑鼻而来的薰衣草的香味，望着我右手边，看见一位男学生手里拿着一束带有纸条的薰衣草的花束，想必是要送给女朋友的吧。花束，纸条，花束，纸条，花束，纸条.. 纸条！！他给我的纸条呢？！啊！一定是刚刚熟睡的时候弄掉的吧！啊！！！我为什么那么不小心！匆忙的我直奔到月台的那一处，张望四周，寻找着那张他给我的纸条，心里着急的像热锅上的蚂蚁。也不知道过了多久，我还是找不到。“小弟，最后一班列车已经开走了，你还不走吗？我们要关闭所有的路口了” 当我正找的入神的时候，一位上了年纪的老伯用那亲切的日语说到。心里也只好带着沮丧的心情走向出口回家，挥了一挥手，上了一辆计程车...

回家的路上，我一点话都不想说，也只能一直盯着车窗外一行行的路灯。心里毛遂着那张他给我的纸条，不是因为他帅，也不是因为想跟他在一起，这是一种对人家的承诺，人家明明说好叫我联络他，如果没有的话，我真的不知道他会怎么想.. 叹了一口气，自我安慰的对自己说，可能没缘分吧..

不过多就，我就到宿舍了，还了计程车费，下了车，我走回宿舍，回到房间，开始有那么一点点的内疚，也很想他，不知道他现在是不是在等我的电话，我想，应该是我想太多了吧。放下书包，打开电脑，向惯例一样上MSN找我的死党，"WBoyboy" 。我是在朋友的部落格里认识他的，重来都没见过他真人。“晚上好啊，笨蛋。” MSN 的那一角突然飞出那死党发来的短信。“好好好！我哪里有笨蛋！” 带着冷笑回答到。

WBoyboy : “你今天过的怎样？”

Me : “马马虎虎，今天可能是我人生中最糟糕的一天，咳。”

WBoyboy : “为什么呢？”

Me : “没有什么啦。。”

WBoyboy : “ 不要伤心嘛！你还有我啊！笨蛋！”

Me : “ 我去休息先，明天才跟你聊。。”

WBoyboy : “ 好的，要好好照顾自己哦！大笨蛋！”

Me : “会的。谢谢，再见。(: ”

关掉电脑，冲好凉，我躺在床上，瞭望着右手边的窗口，今晚的夜里好多星星哦！一闪一闪，一闪一闪，一闪一闪...

不知不觉的我，就这样睡到隔天。。 -To be continue. (: -