With Love.

Turn to life page,I realised I didn't update it for so long le. Hahs,should back to blog alittle bit now.

Didn't did anything much in this month. Life getting bored. Work became life partner,and yet sleep is getting apart from me,make me eye grew bigger. == Tired to the max,even now also,tired like one street dog. Hahs.

Everyday pass my time with friends,play lan,chiong maple and etc etc. Never felt lonely. Grew up with friend's caring. Thanks yeah guys. ^_^

Lastly I need to post something for someone :

Even though I miss you that much,but I'm telling myself not to. I did tried. It just you haven see how much effort I putted in. You ask me to forget you,but as you know,I not gonna too. Even though its just a one night stand,you're still make me gone crazy to you. You rejects everything that I done for you. Maybe you think I'm just a toy for you to play or use,after that you'll just throw my away apart from you. I don't wish that to happen,but it did. (':

After see-ing this,dont be agitated or whatever. I'm just sharing and convert to you how I felt this past few days.

-Meaningless-

抉择

如果真的选择了你，那么以后会不会幸福? 我一直反复的问自己，你是不是我的那下一片春天。

Maybe to you everything that I'd say it enough show that I'd fallen in love with you,but i can tell you its not. I still love him,and yet.. I really dont know whats those feeling. When talking to you on phone,I felt so comfortable,after hang up,my mind is all him again.. If you see this and you did jealous,that mean you love me,so i wont blame you for jealousing yet I'll felt happy because I knew that you love me. From friend to lover,its just a gap,a very very very near gap. You need know me more,you need to listen to my heart beat. At least in future you wont regret if you'd really go on a relationship with me. Cut down my words here. (':

执着 Malheureux

不说对不起，不想说。因为一切的一切只是我想要走的路。(:

痛苦，你们懂吗？

Congrats myself went back to darkness again. Things coming up to haunt me. Thought it getting better,but i think i'm wrong.

My younger bro,a poor thing that kena somethings that made his life thirty. He'll be forever living in the small hut with those small kids and grow up lonely. He seem dislike his life inside childrens home ( Chen Su Lan Home ) . In the starting when those ppl bringing him go,I kneel down and beg my fking father dont do that to him,but yet he still did. He so small size,dont you all use the brain think how will he felt? His dream is just get a computer thats why he will become so bad and naughty,like this small request so hard for you? Cruel Father Ever. I can tell you,I hate you. Beat me all you want. I will just throw you downstair next time and let you die and suffer in the bloody hell. Beebee uh beeebeee,korkor will go visit you someday okay,we cant contact but you know korkor's heart always link to yours isnt it? Type till here,tears start to drop...I dk...

Born in this kind of family,alot ppl will say isnt my family fault,its depends how i live myself. But thats 1 million different from you all think. I'm just being treating like a dog,like a puppy,like a maid. I everynight going to sleep cry,wake up cry. Everyday also cry. Maybe you all will think that i useless,but i dont care how you all comments,I'm just being myself. Stop controlling my life either. (':

Love isnt what you think girl,I enough of those shits that let me suffering now,so yeah,dont make me more and more frustated. If you think I can everyday smile and laugh with you , then you're wrong. I not free to entertain anyone. So stop being annoying and emoing all ard,you're just being a small girl instead doing something better. Impossible mean impossible,stop posting those emo post and make me felt guilty. Make ppl think that I am a puppy who hurt you. Get it? So yeah,I want you now think about it. And stop being ridiculous before I angry. And I not in the mood to play with you this few days,so dont come and try my patient. Mark all m y words. Its for you. (: